Whoa...it's been a while since I have last blogged! Life has been changing very rapidly it seems and as I type those words I realize just how amazing this journey is. I know I am creating my life every day and it has come to my attention lately how negatively I have been thinking the past while.
It seems I have allowed my negative thoughts to rule once again. I have been plagued by this negative thought process for years. Even though I have done tons of emotional releasing of the past, I have forgotten to keep my mind focused on what I want instead of what I don't want. So today I remind myself to imagine my life as I wish it to be. I have created a beautiful life up til now and it came from keeping my mind focused on BEING happy and feeling happy. I remember the years I struggled with depression, most of my life in fact.
The simple answer is; think good thoughts.
Yesterday I got the idea of the mind being in two parts, the childlike part that wants to dream and have fun and the grown up part that worries and is afraid of what 'might happen', (worst case scenario, of course). The childlike part of the mind seems bright and happy while the grown up part seems to be dark and sad. I think I will let the childlike part come out and play for a while. Maybe I needed to allow 'the dark side' to show up so I could see how icky it feels and then smarten up and lighten up. It's my choice how I feel, it took me a long time to realize this. I choose to look at all the blessings in my life, friends, family, work that I love, a roof over my head and food in my tummy. If life is what we make it, I choose to turn over a new leaf and remember I matter, I deserve good things to happen in my life and I AM worth it!
Sincerely, Susan
Showing posts with label inspiration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label inspiration. Show all posts
Friday, September 16, 2011
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Signs Signs Everywhere a Sign...
Have you ever noticed something and then realized you have been noticing that thing enough times that you noticed you were noticing it?
Sometimes that is a 'sign' that is being conveyed by our higher self to give us a hint or to show us the way of our path.
What we may not know is that we can ask for a 'sign' in order for us to get some validation or confirmation.
A friend of mine wanted validation about something and her and I were hiking up a mountain the following day, so she asked that her 'sign' be 2 feathers.
So up the mountain we went, we came upon a tree where others had put little tokens, there were stones, charms, feathers etc all attached to this tree. There were more than one feather and she thought maybe it was her 'sign'. As we walked further, almost at the end of the hike laying on the mud were two tiny pure white feathers. We looked at the feathers as we walked by and she turned to me and said, "Did you see that"? I indeed did. After contemplating what she had seen she decided to go back and pick them up. These were her validation or 'sign'. Now we could say "ya well we were in the forest on the mountain, there is BOUND to be birds and feathers..." or we could choose to believe.
Another time, a client was wondering how she would know what to do about a situation she was involved in. I explained about asking for a 'sign'. Earlier in the session she wondered if a word she was thinking of was 'really a word'. I brought out a dictionary and we discovered it 'was a word', because it was in the dictionary. She wanted some kind of confirmation about the situation she was involved in. I asked her what 'sign' she wanted to see as that confirmation. She thought that seeing a 4 leaf clover would be her 'sign'. Unbeknown to her the dictionary I had pulled out earlier had about 25 four leaf clovers in it because I seem to find them effortlessly and after finding them I don't really know what to do with them so I put them on the inside cover of this large hard cover dictionary. When I opened the dictionary and showed her all the 4 leaf clovers she seemed a little surprised. She thought she would actually be finding the 4 leaf clover herself. Sometimes it happens quickly and it can come in a way that is not how we thought it would show up. The choice is always ours whether we choose to believe or not.
Me, I believe.
Love Susan
Sometimes that is a 'sign' that is being conveyed by our higher self to give us a hint or to show us the way of our path.
What we may not know is that we can ask for a 'sign' in order for us to get some validation or confirmation.
A friend of mine wanted validation about something and her and I were hiking up a mountain the following day, so she asked that her 'sign' be 2 feathers.
So up the mountain we went, we came upon a tree where others had put little tokens, there were stones, charms, feathers etc all attached to this tree. There were more than one feather and she thought maybe it was her 'sign'. As we walked further, almost at the end of the hike laying on the mud were two tiny pure white feathers. We looked at the feathers as we walked by and she turned to me and said, "Did you see that"? I indeed did. After contemplating what she had seen she decided to go back and pick them up. These were her validation or 'sign'. Now we could say "ya well we were in the forest on the mountain, there is BOUND to be birds and feathers..." or we could choose to believe.
Another time, a client was wondering how she would know what to do about a situation she was involved in. I explained about asking for a 'sign'. Earlier in the session she wondered if a word she was thinking of was 'really a word'. I brought out a dictionary and we discovered it 'was a word', because it was in the dictionary. She wanted some kind of confirmation about the situation she was involved in. I asked her what 'sign' she wanted to see as that confirmation. She thought that seeing a 4 leaf clover would be her 'sign'. Unbeknown to her the dictionary I had pulled out earlier had about 25 four leaf clovers in it because I seem to find them effortlessly and after finding them I don't really know what to do with them so I put them on the inside cover of this large hard cover dictionary. When I opened the dictionary and showed her all the 4 leaf clovers she seemed a little surprised. She thought she would actually be finding the 4 leaf clover herself. Sometimes it happens quickly and it can come in a way that is not how we thought it would show up. The choice is always ours whether we choose to believe or not.
Me, I believe.
Love Susan
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I Wanna Be Just Like Her!
I keep thinking I will do this one for my next speech at Toastmasters (public speaking club) , but maybe I will use it as an inspiration instead.
I went to Toastmasters about 12 times as a 'guest' because I was afraid and unsure about joining the club. May sound silly but it is the truth.
One time members from another club joined ours for the evening. Table topics is a Toastmasters tradition to have members 'think on their feet'
for a maximum of 2 minutes. They are to speak about a topic they only know about when they are called upon.
I went to Toastmasters to have this experience and I felt so nervous sometimes I wished I had just stayed home.
On this particular evening was one of those times I wished I had stayed home, avoiding the whole nerve wracking experience. But here I was sitting in my chair trembling, because I knew sooner or later the Tabletopics person would ask me if I would like to have a turn.
I always said yes because I really did want to overcome my nervousness and anxiety.
They usually asked experienced members to go first so I knew I was OK for a while longer. As one by one the members got up and said their little spiel, I knew my turn was fast approaching. I could feel the anxiety consume me as I sat sweating in my chair, my throat tightened so I could hardly swallow, I desperately wanted a drink from my water bottle but I knew my hands would tremble violently and I didn't want to draw any attention to myself so I sat in anxiety ridden silence. Maybe they were going to call on me next...and I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. But no, they called on someone else. A member from the other club.
The woman stood up and her shoes went "tap, tap, tap" as she headed for the front of the room. She began her little talk with conviction. She spoke as if she truly knew what she was going to speak about and she passionately delivered her message. When she was finished her shoes went "tap, tap, tap" all the way back to her chair.
As I sat in my chair, I could feel my back straighten as I thought to myself, "I want to be just like her!" I want to stand up tall and walk confidently to the front of the room and speak with passion and intelligence.
Sure enough, I was asked next if I would like to give it a try and I accepted. I stood up and headed for the front of the room and even though my shoes sounded more like "clop, clop, clop", I began to speak words that formed coherent sentences and with a little humour thrown in, soon my time was done and my shoes said "clop, clop, clop" all the way back to my seat. I DID IT!!
I went to Toastmasters about 12 times as a 'guest' because I was afraid and unsure about joining the club. May sound silly but it is the truth.
One time members from another club joined ours for the evening. Table topics is a Toastmasters tradition to have members 'think on their feet'
for a maximum of 2 minutes. They are to speak about a topic they only know about when they are called upon.
I went to Toastmasters to have this experience and I felt so nervous sometimes I wished I had just stayed home.
On this particular evening was one of those times I wished I had stayed home, avoiding the whole nerve wracking experience. But here I was sitting in my chair trembling, because I knew sooner or later the Tabletopics person would ask me if I would like to have a turn.
I always said yes because I really did want to overcome my nervousness and anxiety.
They usually asked experienced members to go first so I knew I was OK for a while longer. As one by one the members got up and said their little spiel, I knew my turn was fast approaching. I could feel the anxiety consume me as I sat sweating in my chair, my throat tightened so I could hardly swallow, I desperately wanted a drink from my water bottle but I knew my hands would tremble violently and I didn't want to draw any attention to myself so I sat in anxiety ridden silence. Maybe they were going to call on me next...and I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. But no, they called on someone else. A member from the other club.
The woman stood up and her shoes went "tap, tap, tap" as she headed for the front of the room. She began her little talk with conviction. She spoke as if she truly knew what she was going to speak about and she passionately delivered her message. When she was finished her shoes went "tap, tap, tap" all the way back to her chair.
As I sat in my chair, I could feel my back straighten as I thought to myself, "I want to be just like her!" I want to stand up tall and walk confidently to the front of the room and speak with passion and intelligence.
Sure enough, I was asked next if I would like to give it a try and I accepted. I stood up and headed for the front of the room and even though my shoes sounded more like "clop, clop, clop", I began to speak words that formed coherent sentences and with a little humour thrown in, soon my time was done and my shoes said "clop, clop, clop" all the way back to my seat. I DID IT!!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Finally the Answer to Cancer!!
Finally the answer to Cancer!!
After my own healing from cancer, I finally have a complete understanding of 'it', 5 years later.
I attended an information meeting last night and am absolutely delighted about what I learned! It all makes perfect sense to me. And FINALLY the coming together of like-minded people to discover the answer was discovered YEARS AGO! Here it is........are you ready?...
I am going to tell you the short story of it.
SUGAR FEEDS CANCER!!!
It is that simple. I heard that before but didn't completely understand it.
I even wrote about little bits and pieces of this in my book, but didn't understand it completely because I didn't really know what cancer was.
I know I was totally in fear and I didn't want to study 'cancer' even when they told me I had it because I didn't want my mind to believe something I didn't want to believe.
As I went through my own healing, I did modify my diet somewhat. I always ate quite healthy (but I am by no means perfect in this area or any other). I included more vegetables like kale, swiss chard and spinach.
I did stop eating sweets, even though I DO indeed have a sweet tooth.
I cut way back on anything that had wheat in it.
And of course I released all the rage I had been suppressing and then surrendered to depression that plagued me my entire life.
I am going to write more about what I learned another day as I have some things to attend to that I have been procrastinating about. So stay tuned.
Go to www.ABCcancerfree.com Love Susan
After my own healing from cancer, I finally have a complete understanding of 'it', 5 years later.
I attended an information meeting last night and am absolutely delighted about what I learned! It all makes perfect sense to me. And FINALLY the coming together of like-minded people to discover the answer was discovered YEARS AGO! Here it is........are you ready?...
I am going to tell you the short story of it.
SUGAR FEEDS CANCER!!!
It is that simple. I heard that before but didn't completely understand it.
I even wrote about little bits and pieces of this in my book, but didn't understand it completely because I didn't really know what cancer was.
I know I was totally in fear and I didn't want to study 'cancer' even when they told me I had it because I didn't want my mind to believe something I didn't want to believe.
As I went through my own healing, I did modify my diet somewhat. I always ate quite healthy (but I am by no means perfect in this area or any other). I included more vegetables like kale, swiss chard and spinach.
I did stop eating sweets, even though I DO indeed have a sweet tooth.
I cut way back on anything that had wheat in it.
And of course I released all the rage I had been suppressing and then surrendered to depression that plagued me my entire life.
I am going to write more about what I learned another day as I have some things to attend to that I have been procrastinating about. So stay tuned.
Go to www.ABCcancerfree.com Love Susan
Friday, March 12, 2010
Having it all together.
Every couple of months 7 of us friends get together to share dinner and wine. We have come to love these evenings as we all have a chance to share what is happening in our lives. Of course 7 women having a turn to speak leaves only so much time for each of us to share (good thing or we might need the whole week).
At our last get together one of us was mentioning all the crap that was going on in her life and that she hoped one day she would have it 'all together' like the rest of us did. We were all left looking at her with this puzzled expression of... What did she say?...she thought we all 'had it together'?? What in the world is 'having it all together'?
So one by one we tried to convice her of all the reasons why we didn't have it all together.
I remember as a teenager hanging out with friends and the arguement at that time was about who's ass was bigger. We all claimed we each had the biggest ass. Why do we put ourselves down? Why don't we have the courage to say "hey, you want the biggest ass? You can have it!" Instead we each insist ours is bigger.
Well maybe I don't have the biggest ass and maybe I do...the point is it is interesting how we look from anothers perspective.
So I will be the first to say, "I don't have the biggest ass, and I DO have it all together, and I LOVE my life, and I KNOW it is going to get better and better!!!!"
Love Susan
At our last get together one of us was mentioning all the crap that was going on in her life and that she hoped one day she would have it 'all together' like the rest of us did. We were all left looking at her with this puzzled expression of... What did she say?...she thought we all 'had it together'?? What in the world is 'having it all together'?
So one by one we tried to convice her of all the reasons why we didn't have it all together.
I remember as a teenager hanging out with friends and the arguement at that time was about who's ass was bigger. We all claimed we each had the biggest ass. Why do we put ourselves down? Why don't we have the courage to say "hey, you want the biggest ass? You can have it!" Instead we each insist ours is bigger.
Well maybe I don't have the biggest ass and maybe I do...the point is it is interesting how we look from anothers perspective.
So I will be the first to say, "I don't have the biggest ass, and I DO have it all together, and I LOVE my life, and I KNOW it is going to get better and better!!!!"
Love Susan
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Good morning,
Today is my birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEE!!!!
So many things come to mind to share. How about this one, yesterday I am reminded about this phrase that came to me years ago as I awoke one morning.
" Why do we try so hard to fit in, when we are meant to stand out"?
As a teenager I knew I wasn't like everyone else. I didn't have a desire to party or to be really social. I loved to ride my horse either alone or with my friend. Now, I realize how I AM different and I am OK with that. I am not one to follow along just because everyone else does. This includes the medical system's way of doing things. I like to be different now, and I do what feels right for me. I have connected with my inner guidance, and it is a strong connection. We all have access to it and mine became very strong while I was going through my healing of what they call breast cancer. It really taught me to do only what felt right to do and not do what didn't feel right to me. I didn't ask anyone else for advice or opinion. Well, maybe I asked a close friend, the odd time, when I felt really down and out.
I have been real busy with the final tweaks on the printed version of my book, Hello Susan, It's me, Cancer! How to LIVE without Chemotherapy, Radiation or Hormone Treatments.
All for now. Have a great day. Because, you know, it's my Birthday!!
Today is my birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEE!!!!
So many things come to mind to share. How about this one, yesterday I am reminded about this phrase that came to me years ago as I awoke one morning.
" Why do we try so hard to fit in, when we are meant to stand out"?
As a teenager I knew I wasn't like everyone else. I didn't have a desire to party or to be really social. I loved to ride my horse either alone or with my friend. Now, I realize how I AM different and I am OK with that. I am not one to follow along just because everyone else does. This includes the medical system's way of doing things. I like to be different now, and I do what feels right for me. I have connected with my inner guidance, and it is a strong connection. We all have access to it and mine became very strong while I was going through my healing of what they call breast cancer. It really taught me to do only what felt right to do and not do what didn't feel right to me. I didn't ask anyone else for advice or opinion. Well, maybe I asked a close friend, the odd time, when I felt really down and out.
I have been real busy with the final tweaks on the printed version of my book, Hello Susan, It's me, Cancer! How to LIVE without Chemotherapy, Radiation or Hormone Treatments.
All for now. Have a great day. Because, you know, it's my Birthday!!
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